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The candle light flickered in the wind, half heartedly staying on. There is no sound from the expansive halls where once it was filled with clanking of bangles, tinkle of anklets, laughter over a joke said, shouts of children playing in the hall, the footsteps of servants running errands. All that was till a week ago. The hall lay empty and barren, the two old souls were all that is left of the days of the old.
The house had been sold. The house was to be demolished as soon as night passes. Then they will have to leave. Leave where he had been born. Leave the only place she knew after her marriage. The home where their children and their children’s children were birthed and made their homes.
They had their share now. Nobody cared about the old structure of bricks and stone and the two lost souls. Lost in thoughts and grief, they leaned back in their chairs in the veranda. The candle gave a final splutter and died.
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D mighty boom of the cannons
rent d air
grounds tat were once so lush and green
lay barren and gray
crimson pools spread abt
filled perennially
by d blood flowg off human bdies
So much is lost
but to gain what?
Till death they are d patriots of the country
after death what is the difference
between friend and foe
the grief of human loss is d same
across borders and beliefs
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She smiles as they laugh around
But her beautiful eyes remain
Endless pools of sadness
They call themselves her friends
Yet they do not see
Past her confidence
That masks the hurt underneath
She catches me staring at her
And she gives me a smile
The same sad smile
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In the darkness of the night
As I lay my head on my pillow
And the memories rush thro my head
I have no tears left to shed
For I have cried all I could
And said all that I should
Now all I can give
Is a twinge of my heart
And no more
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i saw this pic on thatlittlesomthing.wordpress.com..
…thank u so much.this pic was my inspiration for this story n i hope u dont mind
She had cried so much when she heard Alan had cancer. Now she had no more tears to shed. She hadn’t cried at the funeral. Instead she stood by the coffin, telling goodbye to her long time friend and lover.
As she dangled her legs over the pier…she thought of the days she used to sit in the same spot talking with Alan, teasing him about his newest writings..how long ago it seemed…when it was barely a week.
People have gone back to their own lives, but her life was in stasis…waiting for her to make the first move.
She knew in time that she would but not now when the pain was too fresh…
She thought bitterly how much movies and Hollywood romanticized terminal illness…the protagonist would spend his last few days doing what he always wanted to do with his lady love and would die peacefully in her arms, with all his loved ones around him, promising to be together again in the next life…
How far from reality that was…
Cancer and the chemo with constant medications had drained Alan so much that it was difficult for him to stand much less go skiing in the alpines like in the movies. And there had been no dying peacefully either. She had watched helplessly as he moaned in intense pain clutching his stomach crying out for her help. And when his vitals almost failed, his eyes blinded by agony had met hers for the last time…and he had died knowing he would never see her again..Pain has no dignity or grace…death even lesser…
No, she dint set much store for re-birth. That hope is for those who just cannot accept death. But she, she had seen death and knew there would be no return. And she wasn’t willing to believe otherwise even if they thought her a cold-hearted bitch. Yes she hurt…so much that she would never be the same again. But in time this numbness and pain would fade and she would move on as everyone else…maybe even meet someone and get married and live a full and happy life…But for now she was content to sit by the pier near the house Alan had left her in his will.
While watching the sun moving closer to the horizon, she knew she would have to sell this house, her last physical reminder of him after sometime. For what use she had with this house when what or who attracted her to it no longer exists…
She knew she would never forget Alan, even if she moved on…pushed to the back of her mind and buried in new memories..yes…but when those memories come rushing back, he will be there foremost in her thought…
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